anxious

that's what I am...

I do not want to travel to Georgia tomorrow...it isn't that I don't want to see everybody (J's family) I just don't want to travel....and it makes me anxious...

I miss the nieces and hate we weren't there for Jobe's birth (cause we really should have been) but I just don't want to go...

it's my issue and it's stupid...I'm not sure if it's going back or the travelling itself or the idea of being around so much family in such a concentrated time, but I am not feeling any love and I haven't slept much this week, haven't eaten right, and I wish they were coming here...

maybe I'll let H guest blog on Saturday since she seems to be the primary member of the family online these days...

I'm sure I need medication